There have been a lot of big changes lately. Work has gone from bad to worse, to unbearable, and then to pretty much awesome (although many things are somewhat up in the air as to how wonderful it will actually end up being).
I've had some issues lately, but overall, I'm doing exponentially better than I've done in a very, very long time. It occurred to me the other day that I was really, truly happy. Not a fleeting kind of happy, as in "I had a really great day, so I'm happy right now" kind of thing. I am actually happy.
My life actually seems to be working out for me. I have really awesome friends. And I have more friends than I knew I did. Maybe the years I spent feeling so lonely were unnecessary. Anyway, I'm happy now.
I'm planning on going back to school because I actually miss it. I really feel like I'm ready to go back now.
Work looks like it might be working out for me, finally.
I just feel like finally, everything might really be working out for me.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Mom called me this evening.
Grandma died around 3:30pm today.
This is one of those times that I kind of wish I were more capable of dealing with emotional things. My coping mechanism thus far today has been watching episode after episode of Veronica Mars and The Office via Netflix instant view. And spiking my Coke with liquor.
And now, when my sleeping pills kick in, I'll drift off to blissful sleep. Then tomorrow I'll have to go to work. When I get home tomorrow I'll go back to watching The Office (I finished all of Veronica Mars).
It's just easier that way.
Grandma died around 3:30pm today.
This is one of those times that I kind of wish I were more capable of dealing with emotional things. My coping mechanism thus far today has been watching episode after episode of Veronica Mars and The Office via Netflix instant view. And spiking my Coke with liquor.
And now, when my sleeping pills kick in, I'll drift off to blissful sleep. Then tomorrow I'll have to go to work. When I get home tomorrow I'll go back to watching The Office (I finished all of Veronica Mars).
It's just easier that way.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
It's been coming for far too long.
I got a text from my mom last night while I was at work.
My grandma has had Alzheimer's for several years, and it's been hard to watch her become less and less of herself. She isn't the grandma I remember from when I was younger.
But she's not doing well at all. She has fluid in her lungs, and she isn't eating. I don't know all the details, but they're saying she might not make it through the weekend.
If you pray at all, please pray for her. And for my family. My parents and sisters just left yesterday for vacation in the Smokey Mountains, and they aren't coming back until Friday. I know my mom is going to have a hard time with this.
My grandma has had Alzheimer's for several years, and it's been hard to watch her become less and less of herself. She isn't the grandma I remember from when I was younger.
But she's not doing well at all. She has fluid in her lungs, and she isn't eating. I don't know all the details, but they're saying she might not make it through the weekend.
If you pray at all, please pray for her. And for my family. My parents and sisters just left yesterday for vacation in the Smokey Mountains, and they aren't coming back until Friday. I know my mom is going to have a hard time with this.
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